My Poems are on Kindle!

So, as some of you may know, I've been working on a poetry manuscript that I've been wanting to self-publish through CreateSpace. I really just want to have that physical book in my hands! Well, that's still in the process, but through that I've also been able to put my poems on Kindle using Amazon … Continue reading My Poems are on Kindle!

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Joys of Journals

 Journals themselves have specific smells, whether it’s the rustic smell of an old book, the warm or cool smell of leather (depending on which kind of leather), or the smell of residual ink left on the pages.  It’s so comforting that it puts me in a really good place to start writing. FROM: "Why I … Continue reading Joys of Journals

Working Has Been Good For Me… Who Knew?

So, my last post was all about how I have this job now. It's remote, work-from-home, and it's part-time. Originally I was contracted for 10-20 hours a week. My client asked if I was getting enough hours and, when I said I could work a little bit more, cleared me for working up to 40 hours per … Continue reading Working Has Been Good For Me… Who Knew?

So, I Have a *gulp* Job

Guys, I have a job. I've struggled with having a job in the past. My past two jobs were part-time in fast food and neither of them lasted very long. I had too much anxiety and my depression spiked dramatically. But this job is different. It's still part-time at 10-20 hours per week but it's … Continue reading So, I Have a *gulp* Job

Sudden Mood Shifts

So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts

From Near Crisis to Wise Mind

About a week and a half ago I was having a rough night. I was having some moderately high self-harm urges. If I had to rank them, I'd probably say they were at a 70/100. So, I tried a new skill: I decided to try drawing on my skin instead of cutting. I drew out … Continue reading From Near Crisis to Wise Mind

Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go

Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go

Feeling Lonely Sucks

I feel lonely so much of the time now. Even in a house full of family members I can feel lonely. Night time always seems to bring it out more and sometimes, as I'm sitting or lying in bed, all I want is for my mom or sister to come snuggle me and make me … Continue reading Feeling Lonely Sucks

Nights Are Hard

Sometimes I can have perfectly fine days, days that I would classify as "good", and then all of a sudden night happens. Something about evenings, I don't know what it is, has a way of making my depression, sadness, loneliness, or whatever else I may be experiencing worse. Today was... adequate I guess. The highlight … Continue reading Nights Are Hard