Am I? Am I someone who doesn't want to work hard for what I want out of life? Am I just looking for a way to give up? I don't want to be that person. I want to want to work hard for what I want out of life. I want to recognize that the … Continue reading Am I THAT Person?
I slept 15 hours last night. That's a lot and way too much but I woke up after sleeping 12 hours and it was only 10am and there was no way I wanted to be up early on a weekend after working all week. So I went back to sleep. That has absolutely nothing to … Continue reading Sometimes I Just Want to Hide
So. It's been three weeks since my last post and it was almost longer. I have had some things that I can write about but, for the first time since starting this blog, I'm hesitant. I've always been really open about my struggles with mental illness: diagnoses, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, etc. I'm not ashamed of … Continue reading I’m Conflicted
So, I already have one tattoo. I got it several (probably about 4-5) years ago on my right thigh to cover up some really light self-harm scars that I had. It's a feather and in the design are the words "Strength Lies Within." I love the tattoo. I decided I was going to get a … Continue reading I Want Another Tattoo
I feel like it's been so long since I've last written. Weirdly enough, when I'm doing really well, sometimes I forget about blogging here. So, that's the good news at least. I've been doing really well. The term my psychologist likes to use is "stable." According to her, this is the longest she's seen me … Continue reading Where Have I Been?
I was visiting my twin, Becky, last week, staying at her apartment with her. A few days in, I started feeling a bit depressed. I was sad, lonely, anxious, and had so little energy that I really just wanted to isolate and sleep. At one point, we were talking about doing things and she mentioned … Continue reading The Spoon Theory… and Other Things
I wish I could say this post was about me standing up to stigma in mental illness but it's not. (I don't even think stigma is the right word to use here. It's more like standing up to comments that undercut the seriousness of mental illness.) It's better. This is a gratitude post because my … Continue reading Comments That Undercut the Seriousness of Mental Illness