About 6 1/2 years ago I lost someone very important to me: My brother-in-law. We were incredibly close and his death was a profound shock to my system. I remember the night it happened vividly: The normal day, the racing to the hospital in the middle of the night, seeing my oldest sister's reaction, receiving … Continue reading Grief Isn’t the Same for Everyone
I just came across my post from this time last year. Ringing in the New Year last year was not super joyful. I was depressed, defeated, struggling with my job, and crying a lot of the time. I am so happy to say that this New Year has started out in such a great way. … Continue reading This Time Last Year
Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go
I feel like it's been so long since I've last written. Weirdly enough, when I'm doing really well, sometimes I forget about blogging here. So, that's the good news at least. I've been doing really well. The term my psychologist likes to use is "stable." According to her, this is the longest she's seen me … Continue reading Where Have I Been?
Since Sunday my days have been more good than bad. Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday all fell into the category of what I would call good days. I was feeling positive, happy even, and was being really productive. Tuesday was an off day and then today happened. I woke up exhausted, didn't know what to … Continue reading A Not-So-Great Day
A blog post popped up on my feed a short while ago. It was about whether coloring books can be considered meditative or a meditative practice. I didn't read the article, it was a bit too in-depth for me in my current mental state, but I thought it was cool timing. Because what had I … Continue reading Adult Coloring Books
The other night I was pretty miserable. I didn't really want to do anything and, as a result, ended up playing a computer game (Civilization V) for hours. And I do mean hours. I finally realized that I had reached a point where I was no longer enjoying the game. I was playing mindlessly, as if my … Continue reading Painting to Bring Me Out of My Mindlessness