Calling a Crisis Line

Reaching out for help can be hard and, at times, terrifying. Today I didn't realize I was in a crisis until around 9:30pm, half an hour after my therapist's calling hours ended. I was having serious self-harm urges. I wanted to cut. Badly. I was struggling, making plans to self harm, and felt like I was … Continue reading Calling a Crisis Line

Escaping From Life

Sometimes I feel the need to escape from life. My moods can be so low or I can feel like all my senses are dulled down and I'm a shell. A lot of the time I turn to napping to escape. Even though I sleep close to 12 hours every night I will usually still … Continue reading Escaping From Life

When A Post Just Hits You

So, there's this post from Hazel Hillboro that I read last night that really got to me. All about "revolution in the way society treats mental health." I've linked it below. If you’re reading this right now, you’re alive. Well, unless literate ghosts are real. What if someone really famous is reading this over my … Continue reading When A Post Just Hits You

Cue the Disapproval and Disappointment

I wrote the title for this post last night when I was exhausted from sobbing and trying to understand why I can't seem to just be okay and be able to work. I was called in to work yesterday from 6pm-close, which meant I'd probably get home around 10:45pm. My anxiety was the highest it's … Continue reading Cue the Disapproval and Disappointment

When Anxiety Sets In

Anxiety is not something I am used to experiencing. I had it pretty bad when my depression first started back in my Sophomore year of college in late 2011 and early 2012. My anxiety sometimes presents as this tension in my gut, like a knot, and I want to punch walls and scream and burst … Continue reading When Anxiety Sets In

Three Weeks Later

It's been nearly three weeks since my last post. I don't really know what happened. I've been struggling. In the last two weeks I've had three therapy appointments which, considering I'm supposed to have one every two weeks, tells you a lot probably. I've been feeling helpless, hopeless, and financially strained. Even though I'm actually … Continue reading Three Weeks Later

Damn Pharmaceutical Companies

Is that who I get to be mad at right now? Pharmaceutical companies? Are they the reason it would cost the pharmacy over $1000 just to order a new prescription that my doctor ordered? The reason it is $100/month after my insurance has a go at it? Now, because it's so expensive, I have to go … Continue reading Damn Pharmaceutical Companies