I Didn’t Want to Write this Post…

I could have written part of this post a week and a half ago, on August 5th, when the suicidal thoughts and urges came back. I hoped it was a one-day thing. That it would go away. And I was really shaken up about it so I decided to wait. Writing about it would make … Continue reading I Didn’t Want to Write this Post…

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Three Years!

Today, March 28th, 2018, marks three years since I've stopped cutting. Last year I celebrated on March 27th, but then I realized that March 27th, 2015 was the last day that I actually cut. So, I wanted to celebrate the three year mark of when I stopped. So, March 28th. It has been such a struggle … Continue reading Three Years!

Dealing with Anger

So, this past Wednesday I got pissed. Super angry. And who did I get angry at? My psychiatrist. I went to my scheduled appointment and told my doctor that I haven't been feeling well basically since the beginning of the new year. My mood has been really up and down to the point where I've … Continue reading Dealing with Anger

Extra Therapy and Contributing

I've come to realize that I need to do things for me. And sometimes, when I'm not feeling great and depression feels like it's closing in, that means setting up and extra therapy appointment. I always get a little hesitant about setting up an additional appointment with my therapist because I worry about what she'll … Continue reading Extra Therapy and Contributing

Sudden Mood Shifts

So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts

From Near Crisis to Wise Mind

About a week and a half ago I was having a rough night. I was having some moderately high self-harm urges. If I had to rank them, I'd probably say they were at a 70/100. So, I tried a new skill: I decided to try drawing on my skin instead of cutting. I drew out … Continue reading From Near Crisis to Wise Mind

Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go

Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go