So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts
About a week and a half ago I was having a rough night. I was having some moderately high self-harm urges. If I had to rank them, I'd probably say they were at a 70/100. So, I tried a new skill: I decided to try drawing on my skin instead of cutting. I drew out … Continue reading From Near Crisis to Wise Mind
Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go
I feel lonely so much of the time now. Even in a house full of family members I can feel lonely. Night time always seems to bring it out more and sometimes, as I'm sitting or lying in bed, all I want is for my mom or sister to come snuggle me and make me … Continue reading Feeling Lonely Sucks
Sometimes I can have perfectly fine days, days that I would classify as "good", and then all of a sudden night happens. Something about evenings, I don't know what it is, has a way of making my depression, sadness, loneliness, or whatever else I may be experiencing worse. Today was... adequate I guess. The highlight … Continue reading Nights Are Hard
I feel like it's been so long since I've last written. Weirdly enough, when I'm doing really well, sometimes I forget about blogging here. So, that's the good news at least. I've been doing really well. The term my psychologist likes to use is "stable." According to her, this is the longest she's seen me … Continue reading Where Have I Been?
So, my poetry book is now available as a paperback! I'm so excited because I finally have my poems in one place and it gives me such a sense of pride of open my proof copy and see them there. Soon I will get the final version for myself. If you like some of the … Continue reading My Paperback Poetry Book