Sudden Mood Shifts

So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts

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From Near Crisis to Wise Mind

About a week and a half ago I was having a rough night. I was having some moderately high self-harm urges. If I had to rank them, I'd probably say they were at a 70/100. So, I tried a new skill: I decided to try drawing on my skin instead of cutting. I drew out … Continue reading From Near Crisis to Wise Mind

Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go

Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go

Traveling is Hard

So I'm currently driving down to Florida from Michigan with my mom, grandma, and 14-year-old nephew. What have I learned so far? My newest medication is helping me focus - I can drive a little bit again! I love seeing the sights Traveling is hard on me Traveling is so difficult, for me I think, … Continue reading Traveling is Hard

Here’s to Firsts

Guys, I did something new yesterday. Like really new. A first. I signed up for a free boxing class at a TITLE boxing center near my house. I was really nervous because I'm really out of shape and I've never done anything like it before. I almost called and cancelled twice the day of but … Continue reading Here’s to Firsts

The Importance of a Schedule… And the Difficulty

My last post was over two weeks ago and things were rough. I had called a crisis line because I was struggling with self-harm urges and thankfully I made it through without acting on them. Since then I've had "good" and "bad" days. On the good I was having such a great time. Going out … Continue reading The Importance of a Schedule… And the Difficulty

Calling a Crisis Line

Reaching out for help can be hard and, at times, terrifying. Today I didn't realize I was in a crisis until around 9:30pm, half an hour after my therapist's calling hours ended. I was having serious self-harm urges. I wanted to cut. Badly. I was struggling, making plans to self harm, and felt like I was … Continue reading Calling a Crisis Line