So, there's this post from Hazel Hillboro that I read last night that really got to me. All about "revolution in the way society treats mental health." I've linked it below. If you’re reading this right now, you’re alive. Well, unless literate ghosts are real. What if someone really famous is reading this over my … Continue reading When A Post Just Hits You
I wrote the title for this post last night when I was exhausted from sobbing and trying to understand why I can't seem to just be okay and be able to work. I was called in to work yesterday from 6pm-close, which meant I'd probably get home around 10:45pm. My anxiety was the highest it's … Continue reading Cue the Disapproval and Disappointment
Anxiety is not something I am used to experiencing. I had it pretty bad when my depression first started back in my Sophomore year of college in late 2011 and early 2012. My anxiety sometimes presents as this tension in my gut, like a knot, and I want to punch walls and scream and burst … Continue reading When Anxiety Sets In
An uneasy contentment sits restlessly, perched without feathers in the soul. Trust doesn't come easily to we few but many who learned long ago of the ephemerality of joy. Yet still we try, chipping at brick and mortar inadvertently constructed: The last line of defense morphed into a prison. So we sit, trying to engage, … Continue reading Poem // Feathers
On Monday evening, my mom, two of my sisters, and myself went out to dinner at an Outback near my home to celebrate my two years clean of self harm. When my mom and I were waiting for my sisters to arrive, I decided to order a pop (I recently gave it up) because I … Continue reading A Kind Soul
Trigger Warning - This post references self-harm.
Since Sunday my days have been more good than bad. Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday all fell into the category of what I would call good days. I was feeling positive, happy even, and was being really productive. Tuesday was an off day and then today happened. I woke up exhausted, didn't know what to … Continue reading A Not-So-Great Day