Poem // Buried Deep

Buried Deep I couldn't face you so I smiled instead. I created a cage to hold you: darkened steel, dinged and battered from your furious assault and efforts to crawl up, out of my body to see the light of day— escape. Feral snarls and growls echoed from your many mouths, your innumerable faces screwed … Continue reading Poem // Buried Deep

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Adult Writer’s Group

So, in keeping with a promise I made to my twin back in November to join a club or group, I went to my second meeting of an Adult Writer's Group held at my library. The last meeting I went to was back in November. I didn't really want to go this past week. They … Continue reading Adult Writer’s Group

Extra Therapy and Contributing

I've come to realize that I need to do things for me. And sometimes, when I'm not feeling great and depression feels like it's closing in, that means setting up and extra therapy appointment. I always get a little hesitant about setting up an additional appointment with my therapist because I worry about what she'll … Continue reading Extra Therapy and Contributing

Sudden Mood Shifts

So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts

Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go

Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go

Feeling Lonely Sucks

I feel lonely so much of the time now. Even in a house full of family members I can feel lonely. Night time always seems to bring it out more and sometimes, as I'm sitting or lying in bed, all I want is for my mom or sister to come snuggle me and make me … Continue reading Feeling Lonely Sucks

Nights Are Hard

Sometimes I can have perfectly fine days, days that I would classify as "good", and then all of a sudden night happens. Something about evenings, I don't know what it is, has a way of making my depression, sadness, loneliness, or whatever else I may be experiencing worse. Today was... adequate I guess. The highlight … Continue reading Nights Are Hard