So, as some of you may know, I've been working on a poetry manuscript that I've been wanting to self-publish through CreateSpace. I really just want to have that physical book in my hands! Well, that's still in the process, but through that I've also been able to put my poems on Kindle using Amazon … Continue reading My Poems are on Kindle!
I was visiting my twin, Becky, last week, staying at her apartment with her. A few days in, I started feeling a bit depressed. I was sad, lonely, anxious, and had so little energy that I really just wanted to isolate and sleep. At one point, we were talking about doing things and she mentioned … Continue reading The Spoon Theory… and Other Things
Vacation was great. Really and truly great. But what happens when it's over? When you drive for three days to get back home, you finally get there, and your mood drops incredibly fast? I haven't really come up with an answer yet. I'm exhausted and hot and my room is filled with boxes from my … Continue reading Taking Care of Myself When Vacation Ends
So my last post was about how vacation can be rough sometimes, especially while travelling. But weirdly enough, even my "bad" or "rough" days on vacation were still pretty good days, which I could see looking back at my mood graph that I keep. Looking at my graph, all of my days on vacation (starting … Continue reading A Bad Day on Vacation is Still a Good Day
My schedule plan was hard to follow through on. I did pretty well for about a week and then my period hit. I was suddenly fatigued and really emotional. My mood was really low and suddenly I was having difficulty with basic care like brushing my teeth, showering, and eating. And it was the week … Continue reading Update
My last post was over two weeks ago and things were rough. I had called a crisis line because I was struggling with self-harm urges and thankfully I made it through without acting on them. Since then I've had "good" and "bad" days. On the good I was having such a great time. Going out … Continue reading The Importance of a Schedule… And the Difficulty
Reaching out for help can be hard and, at times, terrifying. Today I didn't realize I was in a crisis until around 9:30pm, half an hour after my therapist's calling hours ended. I was having serious self-harm urges. I wanted to cut. Badly. I was struggling, making plans to self harm, and felt like I was … Continue reading Calling a Crisis Line