So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts
Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go
I feel lonely so much of the time now. Even in a house full of family members I can feel lonely. Night time always seems to bring it out more and sometimes, as I'm sitting or lying in bed, all I want is for my mom or sister to come snuggle me and make me … Continue reading Feeling Lonely Sucks
Sometimes I can have perfectly fine days, days that I would classify as "good", and then all of a sudden night happens. Something about evenings, I don't know what it is, has a way of making my depression, sadness, loneliness, or whatever else I may be experiencing worse. Today was... adequate I guess. The highlight … Continue reading Nights Are Hard
So, my poetry book is now available as a paperback! I'm so excited because I finally have my poems in one place and it gives me such a sense of pride of open my proof copy and see them there. Soon I will get the final version for myself. If you like some of the … Continue reading My Paperback Poetry Book
So, as some of you may know, I've been working on a poetry manuscript that I've been wanting to self-publish through CreateSpace. I really just want to have that physical book in my hands! Well, that's still in the process, but through that I've also been able to put my poems on Kindle using Amazon … Continue reading My Poems are on Kindle!
I was visiting my twin, Becky, last week, staying at her apartment with her. A few days in, I started feeling a bit depressed. I was sad, lonely, anxious, and had so little energy that I really just wanted to isolate and sleep. At one point, we were talking about doing things and she mentioned … Continue reading The Spoon Theory… and Other Things