About a week and a half ago I was having a rough night. I was having some moderately high self-harm urges. If I had to rank them, I'd probably say they were at a 70/100. So, I tried a new skill: I decided to try drawing on my skin instead of cutting. I drew out … Continue reading From Near Crisis to Wise Mind
Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go
So, as some of you may know, I've been working on a poetry manuscript that I've been wanting to self-publish through CreateSpace. I really just want to have that physical book in my hands! Well, that's still in the process, but through that I've also been able to put my poems on Kindle using Amazon … Continue reading My Poems are on Kindle!
Reaching out for help can be hard and, at times, terrifying. Today I didn't realize I was in a crisis until around 9:30pm, half an hour after my therapist's calling hours ended. I was having serious self-harm urges. I wanted to cut. Badly. I was struggling, making plans to self harm, and felt like I was … Continue reading Calling a Crisis Line
Trigger Warning - This post references self-harm.
I moved in with my godparents a few months ago but since taking a 2 week medical leave from work and quitting my job I haven't been home. I have been basically bouncing between different houses, namely my oldest sister's and my grandma's. I don't know why I haven't gone back but I've been trying … Continue reading Baby Steps, Carry Me Forward
A few nights ago, Sunday to be exact, I felt that I was in a bit of an emotional crisis. My mood had rapidly deteriorated over the course of the day and I was having very intense urges (not just thoughts) to self harm. I wasn't originally going to write a post about this since … Continue reading I Will Not Self Harm