Emotional Roller Coaster

Today has been an emotional ride. I don't understand. Is this what normal is supposed to feel like? Ups and downs? Going from angry and on edge to having a fantastic time with my dad at dinner to feeling like I'm in an incredible amount of emotional pain? I literally don't know what to do. … Continue reading Emotional Roller Coaster

No Grandma, I Don’t Want to Come Inside

So, one of my skills from therapy that I use when my emotional intensity is very high is related to cold temperatures. In the past, I've gone in the lake, taken completely cold showers with all of my clothing on, put ice packs on my face while holding my breath, or stepped outside without a … Continue reading No Grandma, I Don’t Want to Come Inside

A Poem I Wrote Made Me Cry

So, yesterday was rough. It seemed like sadness, anger, fear, and apathy gifted to be, nicely wrapped up, by my depression. I was feeling overwhelmed and finally, at 10pm, I decided to write it out, poem style. After reading it over the phone to my sister I started crying. I guess it really hit the … Continue reading A Poem I Wrote Made Me Cry

Scheduling is Hard

A few days ago  I wrote a post about how my twin helped me out. I was stressing out pretty badly about where I am in life and my depression making things difficult and so, together, we made me a daily schedule that I was going to start trying to follow yesterday. And actually, the … Continue reading Scheduling is Hard

Depression & Friendships & Insecurities

Depression lies. Most people who have experienced depression (either directly or indirectly) can tell you this. Those of us working on recovery, on coping and learning to live our lives again, can really attest to that fact. I sometimes like to say that my brain is being an ass-hole; by my brain I am, of … Continue reading Depression & Friendships & Insecurities

Is This “Normal”?

So, I'm really quite curious about something. I've been so used to being stagnant in my life. I've been home from college for nearly 2 years now and I have had no job or progress in any other part of my life other than therapy. As I've mentioned before, my depression has been kicking my … Continue reading Is This “Normal”?

I’m Getting What I Want and Now I’m a Little Scared

So, when thinking about going into my psychiatry appointment today, I knew that I definitely wanted to have my medication adjusted. I felt that way during my last appointment (back in September) but I was so tired, emotionally and physically, that I backed down from my suggestion when my psychiatrist mentioned that a lot of … Continue reading I’m Getting What I Want and Now I’m a Little Scared