Poem // Stoicism Isn’t for the Faint-Hearted

A woman stands on stage. Lights from behind allow a glimpse of her stunning silhouette. She stands still as marble. Cold and smooth, chiseled by a master sculptor, her figure captivates the audience. All is silent as soft lights illuminate her flawless features. Dazzling blue eyes stare impassively ahead. Her delicate fingers intertwine, deceptively peaceful … Continue reading Poem // Stoicism Isn’t for the Faint-Hearted

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Hospitalization… the Right Choice for Me

So, for those who read my last two posts, it's clear that I have been struggling. Starting on August 5th, so almost a month ago, I began having urges to take all my medication in an attempt to overdose. I wouldn't say I was suicidal, per se, because I didn't really want to die. I … Continue reading Hospitalization… the Right Choice for Me

Poem // Buried Deep

Buried Deep I couldn't face you so I smiled instead. I created a cage to hold you: darkened steel, dinged and battered from your furious assault and efforts to crawl up, out of my body to see the light of day— escape. Feral snarls and growls echoed from your many mouths, your innumerable faces screwed … Continue reading Poem // Buried Deep

Extra Therapy and Contributing

I've come to realize that I need to do things for me. And sometimes, when I'm not feeling great and depression feels like it's closing in, that means setting up and extra therapy appointment. I always get a little hesitant about setting up an additional appointment with my therapist because I worry about what she'll … Continue reading Extra Therapy and Contributing

Sudden Mood Shifts

So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts

Nights Are Hard

Sometimes I can have perfectly fine days, days that I would classify as "good", and then all of a sudden night happens. Something about evenings, I don't know what it is, has a way of making my depression, sadness, loneliness, or whatever else I may be experiencing worse. Today was... adequate I guess. The highlight … Continue reading Nights Are Hard

A Bad Day on Vacation is Still a Good Day

So my last post was about how vacation can be rough sometimes, especially while travelling. But weirdly enough, even my "bad" or "rough" days on vacation were still pretty good days, which I could see looking back at my mood graph that I keep. Looking at my graph, all of my days on vacation (starting … Continue reading A Bad Day on Vacation is Still a Good Day