Working Has Been Good For Me… Who Knew?

So, my last post was all about how I have this job now. It's remote, work-from-home, and it's part-time. Originally I was contracted for 10-20 hours a week. My client asked if I was getting enough hours and, when I said I could work a little bit more, cleared me for working up to 40 hours per … Continue reading Working Has Been Good For Me… Who Knew?

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So, I Have a *gulp* Job

Guys, I have a job. I've struggled with having a job in the past. My past two jobs were part-time in fast food and neither of them lasted very long. I had too much anxiety and my depression spiked dramatically. But this job is different. It's still part-time at 10-20 hours per week but it's … Continue reading So, I Have a *gulp* Job

Cue the Disapproval and Disappointment

I wrote the title for this post last night when I was exhausted from sobbing and trying to understand why I can't seem to just be okay and be able to work. I was called in to work yesterday from 6pm-close, which meant I'd probably get home around 10:45pm. My anxiety was the highest it's … Continue reading Cue the Disapproval and Disappointment

Three Weeks Later

It's been nearly three weeks since my last post. I don't really know what happened. I've been struggling. In the last two weeks I've had three therapy appointments which, considering I'm supposed to have one every two weeks, tells you a lot probably. I've been feeling helpless, hopeless, and financially strained. Even though I'm actually … Continue reading Three Weeks Later

Quitting My Job

So, those of you who have been reading my posts probably know that a week and a half ago I got a doctor's note from my psychiatrist excusing me from work for a couple weeks (through the 18th). As the week and a half has progressed (with medication adjustments) I have still been feeling very … Continue reading Quitting My Job

Taking Time Off Work

For those of you following my latest posts, it's probably evident that I have not been doing very well. I have been incredibly depressed, fighting off self-harm urges, and have been crying 2/3 of my days. It's exhausting. I called in sick to work twice (on the 31st of December and the 3rd of January) … Continue reading Taking Time Off Work

How the Heck Did I Do That?

I went to work yesterday. For a lot of people, there's nothing extraordinary about that statement. But for me, going to work yesterday, it seems incredible. When I went to bed the previous night I was calm, but I had been struggling for the hours preceding laying down to go to sleep. Only through the use … Continue reading How the Heck Did I Do That?