Here’s to Firsts

Guys, I did something new yesterday. Like really new. A first. I signed up for a free boxing class at a TITLE boxing center near my house. I was really nervous because I'm really out of shape and I've never done anything like it before. I almost called and cancelled twice the day of but … Continue reading Here’s to Firsts

Update

My schedule plan was hard to follow through on. I did pretty well for about a week and then my period hit. I was suddenly fatigued and really emotional. My mood was really low and suddenly I was having difficulty with basic care like brushing my teeth, showering, and eating. And it was the week … Continue reading Update

The Importance of a Schedule… And the Difficulty

My last post was over two weeks ago and things were rough. I had called a crisis line because I was struggling with self-harm urges and thankfully I made it through without acting on them. Since then I've had "good" and "bad" days. On the good I was having such a great time. Going out … Continue reading The Importance of a Schedule… And the Difficulty

Calling a Crisis Line

Reaching out for help can be hard and, at times, terrifying. Today I didn't realize I was in a crisis until around 9:30pm, half an hour after my therapist's calling hours ended. I was having serious self-harm urges. I wanted to cut. Badly. I was struggling, making plans to self harm, and felt like I was … Continue reading Calling a Crisis Line

Escaping From Life

Sometimes I feel the need to escape from life. My moods can be so low or I can feel like all my senses are dulled down and I'm a shell. A lot of the time I turn to napping to escape. Even though I sleep close to 12 hours every night I will usually still … Continue reading Escaping From Life

Emotional Roller Coaster

Today has been an emotional ride. I don't understand. Is this what normal is supposed to feel like? Ups and downs? Going from angry and on edge to having a fantastic time with my dad at dinner to feeling like I'm in an incredible amount of emotional pain? I literally don't know what to do. … Continue reading Emotional Roller Coaster

A Little Friend Time

Guys, I haven't seen most of my college friends in nearly 2 years. 2 years! It's been so long. Well, this past weekend I got to see several of them for a bridal shower during the day in Illinois and 2 nights out in Holland. I was so excited. I could barely sleep the first night I … Continue reading A Little Friend Time