So, my last post was all about how I have this job now. It's remote, work-from-home, and it's part-time. Originally I was contracted for 10-20 hours a week. My client asked if I was getting enough hours and, when I said I could work a little bit more, cleared me for working up to 40 hours per … Continue reading Working Has Been Good For Me… Who Knew?
Guys, I have a job. I've struggled with having a job in the past. My past two jobs were part-time in fast food and neither of them lasted very long. I had too much anxiety and my depression spiked dramatically. But this job is different. It's still part-time at 10-20 hours per week but it's … Continue reading So, I Have a *gulp* Job
So, today was great. The last few days have been great. I've been being and feeling really productive at life-type things like babysitting, working towards getting a job, cleaning, helping my sister build an entertainment system, helping my nephew rake leaves. It's been so good. Last night, talking to one of my friends on the phone, I … Continue reading Sudden Mood Shifts
About a week and a half ago I was having a rough night. I was having some moderately high self-harm urges. If I had to rank them, I'd probably say they were at a 70/100. So, I tried a new skill: I decided to try drawing on my skin instead of cutting. I drew out … Continue reading From Near Crisis to Wise Mind
Just in case you're wondering, no this post isn't about anything sexual. 😉 Now, onto the serious. Last night was a really rough night for me. My self-harm urges were at an intensely high level. They were so high that I actually went in search of something that I could use to cut with. Thankfully, … Continue reading Sometimes a Cold Shower is the Way to Go
I feel lonely so much of the time now. Even in a house full of family members I can feel lonely. Night time always seems to bring it out more and sometimes, as I'm sitting or lying in bed, all I want is for my mom or sister to come snuggle me and make me … Continue reading Feeling Lonely Sucks
Sometimes I can have perfectly fine days, days that I would classify as "good", and then all of a sudden night happens. Something about evenings, I don't know what it is, has a way of making my depression, sadness, loneliness, or whatever else I may be experiencing worse. Today was... adequate I guess. The highlight … Continue reading Nights Are Hard