So, my last post was all about how I have this job now. It’s remote, work-from-home, and it’s part-time. Originally I was contracted for 10-20 hours a week. My client asked if I was getting enough hours and, when I said I could work a little bit more, cleared me for working up to 40 hours per week. I’m not actually working 40 hours a week. Right now I’m trying to average just over 20. Just getting used to it and everything. But you know what that told me?
Getting cleared to work that much communicated something very important to me: That my work is valued and that I’m doing a good job. Otherwise, they wouldn’t have cleared me to work more. It’s a really good feeling.
Since starting work, I’ve noticed something. My mood has been more positive. I’ve been less lonely, had fewer self-harm urges, and overall have felt so much more productive (probably because I’m actually being productive). Plus, let’s be honest, earning money definitely doesn’t suck.
I have had some challenges, though. Working consistently is hard, especially when you’re not used to it. I’ve only had two jobs before, both part-time and in the fast food industry, and they were so different than what I’m doing now. Being self-motivated to get out of bed, get dressed, and get to work can be difficult, especially on the days when I’m not feeling my best. But so far I’ve managed to do it! As my sister tells me, “The thought of doing work is sometimes more painful and difficult than actually getting up and doing the work so you might as well just do the work!”
Did that make sense? It did in my head. Well, that’s all for now!