I surprised myself today, guys.
I was scheduled to work a 7 hour shift. I didn’t sleep well last night and so, after I took my morning Lithium, I got nauseous at work. I was exhausted so my heart rate was elevated while trying to work. 4 hours into my shift I felt like I’d had enough. I was exhausted, in pain, light-headed, and feeling overwhelmed and anxious. I thought, “I can’t do this. How am I going to make it through this shift? I can’t.” I even went to ask my manager if I could leave early. When I realized no one would be able to cover the rest of my shift, I said, “Alright, I’ll just stick it out and see how it goes.”
That’s when things started to change.
Maybe it was knowing I couldn’t leave or maybe it was the new, positive self-talk of, “I can do this. I have to do this. I can make it” that made the difference. Maybe it was getting away from the heat of the sandwich station. All I know is that I did it. I made it through my shift. I finished.
I thought I couldn’t do it. I told myself I couldn’t and it felt unbearable.
I told myself I could do it and I found that I was able to.
Positive self-talk and encouragement go a long way. And pushing myself just a bit allowed me to realize that I’m stronger than I thought I was.